My makeup epiphany

The title might be a little bit of an exaggeration, but back in the summer I had a sort of wakeup call that changed a lot for me.

You see, I used the wear loads of makeup. I'm not saying that that is a bad thing in the slightest, but it was the cheapest you could find and I never did it very well.

I had huge dark eyebrows, and such thick eyeliner it was basically my entire eyelid.

I hadn't quite grasped the concept of what bronzer was supposed to do because I went out everyday with huge great big orange streaks on my face.

I always wore foundation that was too dark and looked a little like an orange clown.

The thing was, I didn't really see all this. When I first put it on in the morning it would look ok because of the lack of day light in my bedroom, but by the time I got home from school, I would look absolutely terrible.

But I was almost caught in a web. All the makeup made my skin bad, so I had to wear more to stop my skin from looking bad, which just made it look worse.

There were many times when I wanted to change, break the circle, but I just didn't know how.

But then at the beginning of the summer I went to Guidepost. I don't know what it was, but on the last day I got out of the shower and saw all of my makeup running down my face and I realized that I wear so so so much, and it doesn't do anything for me whatsoever.

It didn't make me look better, if anything it made me look a lot worse.

Then over the summer I had a complete detox. I didn't wear makeup for months, giving my skin the chance to breathe.

It really worked, I had better skin and I was really grateful for it. Of course, I'll never have perfect skin, or anything close to it due to the fact that being a teenager is great fun, but then who has got perfect skin? (No bragging in the comments!)

However, this is something that I have been wrestling with since going back to school.

School is really difficult, because you've always got to look your absolute best so that you don't get laughed at behind your back, but at the same time aren't being called horrible names because you wear too much.

To be completely honest, it really worries me looking back about what everyone might've been saying about me!

But the thing is, I like doing my makeup. I like making myself look a little more human than before. I like going out and buying new things to try, it makes me happy.

So once again, I'm caught in this web where I like wearing and doing makeup and its what everyone else is doing, but I'm also very afraid that I might start to go overboard again without noticing.

At the moment, I think that I wear fairly minimal stuff. On an average school day I have a light layer of foundation, powder, a little stroke of bronzer, some mascara, maybe a little nude eye shadow and a nude lippy.

No eyeliner, no eyebrows.

But I still wish that I could be the person who can wear no makeup to school, but I am too afraid. That's an awful excuse, but it is valid enough in my mind.

I think that for the moment, I am going to try to keep it minimal and maybe scale it back a little, because I don't want to be fake, or plastic or dependant on makeup.

See you soon!